You need help stopping and there is help available. I quit drinking a few years ago after realizing I was an alcoholic. You need to stop before you body forces you to stop.
With some effort, support, and planning I was able to not drink for a year straight. And have since been able to have a drink without having too much or wanting more.
It isn’t easy but neither is liver issues.
Figure out what drives you to drink and avoid it. I cut friends that I liked to drink around. Quit a well paying job because it stressed me out. I took a few weeks off after I quit and kinda reset and finally had found my major trigger.
Anyway you can get a handle on it.
Now…if only peer tube worked well.