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    Learning is just somehow easy for me I don’t know maybe it is skewing my perspective and everyone else must sit there for hours before they grasp stuff.

    We talk about systemic problems, not about your personal experience. And not about just “everyone else sitting there for hours before they grasp stuff”, but about not being taught stuff for them to be grasp.

    School always seemed so stupid, uni too. You can learn that stuff in a month by yourself more quickly and efficiently if you felt like you wanted instead of feeding dopamine scrolling phone.

    If uni was so boring for you, how it comes you are talking about licking some CEO’s ass instead of advancing science in CERN?

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      Frankly I don’t really care about systemic problems not genuinely so but wanted to write lotta words I cannot say aloud to anyone.

      You see having someone to confide this stuff is rare usually I have to be acting. Weaving some personas

      Just so occasion arises with some semi vaguely connected comic.

      So I can just shower ya all with my deepest thoughts without any repercussions. Brutal honesty is what I miss sometimes that was always fun.

      I usually am focused on my self improvement journey but once a week I get a cheat meal so to say. This is my cheat meal

      Feels good but also is so socially bad lol but hey you have to let loose sometimes

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        Yeah can’t say them aloud cause no one wants to be near a person that thinks they are superior to everyone else and you at best have only business acquaintances instead of friends?

        Stop treating people like toys and tools and thinking it’s fun to be cruel and you won’t be so lonely.

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          I think it’s sort of built in tbh. I can’t remember when it wasn’t the case.

          All the dark triad stuff arson, animal cruelty and the things as a kid.

          I just don’t have this sense you all neurotypicals have. And I only know because some drugs make me see a glimpse of it. Of this sort of warm feeling towards living beings. It’s very rare to feel this for me

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            Christ as if any of that makes you special.

            Kids burn shit all the time, my sister tried to start a circus that killed all our pets and more.

            You are just roleplaying your idea of a perfect person to get through this reality extra hard. I don’t care. You aren’t actually special or better than anyone. You are barely unique in a numbers game anyways.

            You are whoever you act like. Congrats. You picked a sure heck of a winner. Shame it’s so pathetic.

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              Well then I am several people then because holy shit I change it week to week, day to day

              Otherwise it would be boring yes

              Yesterday was truly best person day, today is worst person day

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                  Well maybe because I could have like narcissism or npd it’s pretty probable. Psychedelics revealed it to me many times

                  Or like that one - HPD

                  Lemme have some fun online from time to time

                  More psychedelics after today is in order though to balance this rampage so to say, they always recenter me.

                  At some point I will get a good grasp on this thing and enough data points. Gonna pop some stuff now and see how this experience relates to my internal psyche

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                    All just names to say you want to be special.

                    I truly don’t care. Everyone else is already unique and also living the same reality as you. Get over yourself or go away and don’t rely on anyone else for anything.

                    I will end with this.
                    You sound like my methed up sister who insists she’s special too. I only hope you don’t actually end up like her. Mostly because you end up doing awful shit to people because you are searching for some high of superiority. It’s left her very alone and taken advantage of more than she’s taken advantage of others.

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        It sounds like you’re a narcissist and psychopath or sociopath. If you’re in the US, you won the jackpot as our wealth-obsessed society allows people with antisocial disorders like that to go very far, especially if they’re intelligent and skilled at masking.

        EDIT: After reading more comments of yours further down, you definitely are and are aware of it.

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        That is I could find easily people I could say it to but like they are disgusting and I ended this phase and no longer have a company of unsavoury types

        Now I am a proper citizen, good, kind and all the stuff and my company consists of similar.

        I am in lgbt circles now and even socialists so like not the best audience for this sorta talk lol